It's No One's Fault

Yesterday I had my first date in six weeks. I went out with a guy, Thad, who saw my OKCupid page and went to my blog to chat with me. After we exchanged a few messages, I let him call me. He seemed like a nice guy. He wrote that he didn’t have much money, and that he drove an old Saturn car. Thad called me on Monday, just to confirm the time he was going to come by. During that conversation it came out that he really had an okay job, and he did not drive a Saturn, he had been joking about the Saturn, and his financial situation. I was excited about the date, a fact I did not try to hide.

I found out yesterday that Thad really drives a car called a 370Z, or something like that. He seemed very proud of it. The car was sky-blue and very pretty. He likes to drive it very fast. Thad works handling investments for a bank. He graduated from Northwestern University about six years ago. Thad said that he makes good money but that “he doesn’t have as much money as I think he does.” I did not have any thoughts on his money one way or the other, so I’m not sure how to take what he said.

We went out and had a pizza at a place called Qs. It was a nice place that was kind of old-fashion. While we waited for our pizza to come out of the oven, Thad talked about something, but I’m not sure exactly what. It had to do with his job. The pizza was pretty good. Afterwards Thad suggested we go to a sports bar somewhere, but I was pretty tired, not to mention I had to get up early the next morning. So I said that he had better take me home. Thad walked me to my door and I was going to kiss him goodnight, but he said goodbye and left before I could. I think he was in a hurry to go somewhere.

Anyway, all morning I’ve been thinking about last night, kind of going back over it in my head. I think the thing is; Thad does everything faster than I like them done. He drove his car fast, he walks quickly, he even talks with the words coming out rapidly. I know it sounds dumb, but those things bothered me. It isn’t Thad’s fault, and there’s nothing wrong with doing things hurriedly, but I don’t want to be with someone if I have to rush just to keep up. But like I said, that’s nothing against Thad. That’s just the way he is. I just wish we could have just relaxed together and spent some time casually talking. 

Another thing I did not like is that Thad would swear sometimes. Again, I know it makes me sound like a dolt, but the cussing bothered me. Even I will swear when I’m really angry, but I don’t swear when I’m just talking normally. Maybe I should have been a nun.

It could be that I'm wrong but I think Thad was expecting some other kind of girl, a girl different than me. To tell you the truth, I actually feel a little guilty that I took a couple of hours of his time last night. I think he could have spent them more wisely doing something else.